Wednesday, August 29, 2007

It's Kind Of A Funny Story is depressing. It's making me depressed. It makes it seem like suicide is the only way out :| :| That and getting therapy... hahaha anyway, it's kinda funny though... :|

Anyway, I visited the chapel today (MsQ, be proud) and wow, I haven't had a better day the WHOLE schoolyear (well, so far). So maybe I'll try going everyday... It's a sign from God. :-o Also maybe cause there were no tests today.

Anyway, I'm texting Pat now and I really miss IIB. The other day Thea and I were talking and we had a conversation that went like this:

Gabbe: You know what, if we had like Sarah, Bea A, Caylene, Mariz, Pat V in IIIC it would be like IIB again.
Thea: I know, super! It's like the IIB CORE GROUP.

I've been laughing about it since. Haaayy IIB. I miss everyone.

Off to study and bond with Padre Silva :|

Monday, August 27, 2007

Survey stolen from Isa..

[One] Who was your last text from?
Michelle

[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
YM: A&F Fifth Avenue; Multiply: Tagaytay

[Three] What's your middle name?
Valmores

[Four] Your current relationship status?
Single

[Five] Does your crush like you back?
If he knew I like, existed :| :|

[Six] What is your current mood?
Lazy--haha ditto Isa.

[Seven] What's your mom's name?
Nanette

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
Blue

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
YES

[Eleven] Do you like drinking tea?
No.

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
No.

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
Curse, Chat/Talk, Read fanfic

[Fifteen] Who can you tell anything to?
Bea A.

[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Hahaha, omg, Bea A's brother...

[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday

[Nineteen] If you could have one super power what would it be?
Turn back time, photographic memory... well, that's not really a power.. but whatever...

What's the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
Teeth

[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from starbucks?
Iced White Chocolate Mocha

[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
That's why it's a secret

[Twenty-three] Favorite colors?
Green, Red and orange

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Sometimes

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing

[Twenty-seven] Do you speak any other language?
I'm shit at Filipino

[Twenty-eight] What's your favorite smell?
the aircon.

[Twenty-nine] Describe your life in one word, what would it be?
Sucks. Okay, fine, maybe my life is pretty good.... but.. ehhh

[Thirty] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Nope.

[Thirty-two] What are you thinking about right now?
Prom stuff with Lau

[Thirty-three] What should you be doing?
Preparing my stuff for school

[Thirty-four] Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
Isa.

[Thirty-five] what is your grandma's name?
Omg, hehe I don't know.. I know their nicknames.. I never met them :|

[Thirty-six] Do you like working in the yard?
Not really...

[Thirty-seven] If you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
Pitt. HAHAHAHA. Or maybe Timberlake... actually, no, Timberlake is weird... I'll just stick with what I have.

[Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around the person you like?
Less noisy :|

[Thirty-nine] What is your natural hair color?
Black.

[Forty] Who was the last person to make you cry?
A bunch of numbers, actually.

~~~

My dad thinks just cause we're so young, we cant get stressed. He also doesn't believe that teenagers can get and emo kids really do cut themselves.


He also doesn't believe in GLOBAL WARMING :|

Sunday, August 26, 2007

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck you

I hate myself.

I should start working....

The first cut is always the deepest...

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

The tests today: ERRRRR.

I need someone to talk to.

Monday, August 20, 2007

6:15 AM.

Only God (and the two hours before the test) can help me now.

I put on my blouse (yes, I took a bath already, to wake me up) and I have to go and change it because my hair just dripped all over it (well.. not really..) But it's gross and wet.

Ask if you wanna wear it dripped ;;) hahaha gross
7 hours till I take Chem, Fil and Lit.

I'm not ready, yo!
Love, the feeling's mutual.

20 things I want to say to certain people...

List 20 things you want to say to certain people but you know you never will.
Don't say who they are.
Then, post the list entitled ' 20 things I want to say to certain people ' .

1. I wish we could go back to summer. I hate the way things are now.
2. I want to be the person you want to talk to.
3. I wish you appreciate our friendship as much as I do.
4. I know you're going through a lot with this and I really want to help you but I can't handle you talking about it with me. So, please just shut up.
5. Fuck me over again, and I swear, bitch, I will fucking kill you.
6. I really try to do better.
7. You think you're so fucking great, you're so fucking intelligent... well, YOU'RE FUCKING FULL OF IT. You really piss me off sometimes.
8. Let's be friends again.
9. Why are we friends? Because you listen to me when no one else does.
10. Why won't you listen to me?
11. Grow up.
12. You fucking bitch. You fucking don't give a shit about anyone but yourself.
13. Stop telling me that I'm not good enough.
14. I GET IT OKAY, NOW PLEASE STOP NAGGING.
15. Thank you for EVERYTHING.
16. Your life is so fucking great, stop moping or wishing how much better it could fucking be or how much more you could do and just live it.
17. I really really really miss you. I wish we could go back to the way our friendship was towards the end of 2006.
18. I'm sorry at the way I, or we ended things. I want to talk to you again.
19. Did you ever care?
20. I hate pretending that I don't like you.

I must stop watching Entourage and stop cursing.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

I didn't wake up. I heard the alarm ring at 7am but I had to press the bloody snooze button. Aghhh. And when I did finally get up, I watched more Entourage. Good thing I'm done watching all the episodes already or I'll never get started.

I have to do:
-Philo
-Memorize Fil stuff
-review chem
-review Lit
-Geom with my tutor

Yeah, okay. No more "breaks" when I haven't even started studying. :| :| Okay, only at 10:45 for Jake tonight :)) :))

Okay, I can do this.

Curse the six-day weekend.
I solemnly swear that I will wake up early tomorrow to do Philo paper and study.
I ditched lunch at my tita's to supposedly study and think of stuff for prom comm cause Mica wants something by tomorrow. But of course, I had to go and check HBO before I start. FreakinSkyCablePlatinum has 4 HBOs and one of them was having Entourage back to back from 11 to 33:30. So, yes. I have not freakin'started. AND THEN the other regular HBO also had flippin' Entourage on.

I have to study and do Philo now. But aggghhh.

:| :| :| :|

Saturday, August 18, 2007

See, I was going to have a long post today, But I decided to piss MARIANE PONTEJOS off and just have one of my extremely short, this means shit posts.

Thank you, Lea for today :)

Thursday, August 16, 2007

hello rain where are you going

I must stop posting

shit
hahahah hey it's raining!!!!
God help me really

I cant fucking concentrate

stupidshit

haaayy

barely studied.

sana walang pasok.

haha omg filipino!

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

IF YOU READ MY BLOG

I'm sorry that my posts aren't really updates and that they're just rants.... hahahaha.
Sorry if my blog is borrrrring.
no classes tomorrow
woohoo

we ran out of cereal
boohoo
Is it just me or were the tests today just SHIT? What kind of sentence did I just create? Mmmm. FUCK COMPO AND HISTO

Fooooool, how tf am I gonna study for lit, chem and fil? ahhh

please no classes tomorrow.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Out of nowhere, my tutor comes, so she reviews me chem. IT'S 830 AND I HAVENT STARTED BUT I'VE STUDIED FOR THE TESTS THAT ARENT EVEN TOMORROW

I havent eaten... im hungry... im not capitalizing nor am i punctuating...
Out of nowhere, my tutor comes, so she reviews me chem. IT'S 830 AND I HAVENT STARTED BUT I'VE STUDIED FOR THE TESTS THAT ARENT EVEN TOMORROW

hello, all-nighters!

Gushi really helped me with Geom. Hahaha I see the "light" but I still have to super duper practice! :)) :))

Anyway, I'm kinda nervous for Histo. Fermin made the test. Compo is just killing me too... of all the stupid things!

Monday, August 13, 2007

GABBEOLOGY (might as well be Gabbe O)

Things are starting to look better.

Chat with msQ kanina... mmm.. always gives me a lot to think about...

I have a new tutor, she keeps asking me if i have a boyfriend:| but she seems really smart and she's helping me, I guess I'll abstain from bursting out and laughing when she says something pa-cool. :)) :))

Surveyyy


Let others know a little more about
yourself, repost "(your name)OLOGY"

Q: What is your favorite fast food
restaurant?
A: Burger King

Q: What is your favorite sit-down
restaurant?
A: A lot... Shang Palace, Kaiseki, Cibo, Bubba Gump, that place with good crepes in Georgetown, Circles... a lot, okay?! :)) Oh yeah! That place in Boston... :))

Q: On average, what size tip do you
leave at a restaurant?
A: At least P50, but if I'm with my parents, I don't know how much they tip...

Q: What food could you eat every day
for two weeks and not get sick of it?
A: Prawn salad from Shang Palace. And that noodle thing that my dad orders all the time there... :))

Q: What are your pizza toppings of
choice?
A: Cheeeeeeeese

Q: What do you like to put on your
toast?
A.: OMG, Isa! Butter and Sugar! Hahahaha. But I don't do that anymore, the only sugar we have in the house is Splenda. :| :| :|

TECHNOLOGY

Q: What is your wallpaper on your
computer?
A: Isa, Thea and I during the sleepover at Pen

Q: How many televisions are in your
house?
A: 5 and another one gathering dust...

BIOLOGY

Q: Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A: Right

Q: Have you ever had anything removed
from your body?
A: Nope

Q: What is the last heavy item you
lifted?
A: Hahhaha uhm, probably my school bag... :))

Q: Have you ever been knocked
unconscious?
A: Not that I know of...

BULLCRAPOLOGY

Q: If it were possible, would you want
to know the day you were going to die?
A: Why not? Put me out of this misery...

Q: If you could change your name, what
would you change it to?
A: I like my name.

Q: What color do you think looks best
on you?
A: People tell me it's red, and I guess I agree.

Q: Have you ever swallowed a non-food
item by mistake?
A: Hahahaha, yes :|

Q: Have you ever saved someones life?
A: Nope

Q: Has someone ever saved yours?
A: Nope

DAREOLOGY

Q: Would you kiss a member of the same
sex for $100?
A: No

Q: Would you allow one of your little
fingers to be cut off for $200,000
A: No

Q: Would you never blog again for
$50,000?
A: No

Q: Would you pose naked in a magazine
for $250,000?
A: No

Q: Would you drink an entire bottle of
hot sauce for $1,000?
A: Not

Q: Would you, without fear of
punishment, take a human's life for
$1,000,000?
A: Maybe if I wanna kill the person too.. :))

DUMBOLOGY

Q: What is in your left pocket?
A: Nothing

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a
good movie?
A: Haven't seen that movie :|

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in
your house?
A: Hardwood with carpeted areas, same in VA

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: Stand.

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you
own?
A: a lot.. :)) I don't count...

Q: Last time you had a run-in with the
cops?
A: Probably that time my dad got caught in the States :)) :| :|

Q: What do you want to be when you
grow up?
A:

Q: Who is number 1 on your top 8?
A: For now, ISABEL FRANCISCO, my soulmatecause I haven't really talked to her in a long time.

LASTOLOGY

Q: Friend you talked to?
A: Mariane

Q: Last person who called you?
A: Charisse

Q: Person you hugged?
A: :| :| I'm not a big hug person

FAVORITOLOGY

Q: Number?
A: 7,17,77, :)) :)) get the picture?


Q: Season?
A: Winter

CURRENTOLOGY

Q: Missing someone?
A: Yes.

Q: Mood?
A: I'm not happy with things but I'm not exactly depressed either... :|

Q: Listening to?
A: Nicco being annoying...

Q: Watching?
A: The screen, duh

Q: Worrying about?
A: SCHOOL STUPID THING AGGGHHHHHHHHH

RANDOMOLOGY

Q: First place you went this morning?
A: Hahahaha, honestly, the computer :| :|

Q: What can you not wait to do?
A: As of this moment? DIE. Hahaha, well that really isn't an option... Isis' on Friday... oh and say EXAMS ARE OVERRRRR (for now)

Q: Do you smile often?
A: I'd LIKE to think so.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: I'd LIKE to think so also.

Friday, August 10, 2007

Stop it with all the fucking numbers.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Stolen from Isa

Feeling a lot better since there's no school today!

RICH KID
[ ] You go tanning.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You own something from coach
[ ] You own something from chanel
[ ] You own something from juicy couture
[x] You own something from louis vuitton
[x] You love/like going to the mall.
[x] You own an iPod/MP3 player.
[x] You love Starbucks.
[x] You have been called a brat.
[x] You have tons of shoes
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale
[x] You have more than one house (do lots count? XP)
Total: 9

[GOTHIC]
[ ] Black is one of your favorite colors.
[x] You have thought about death.
[ ] You wear chains.
[] You like heavy metal
[ ] You've shopped at Hot Topic.
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[x] Your hair was/is dark.
[ ] You DISlike preps.
[ ] You're an athiest/ satanist.
[x] You have/want piercings.
Total: 3

[PUNK]
[ ] You can skateboard.
[ ] You wear plaid. (other than our uniform, nope)
[x] You like Converse.
[ ] You hate MTV.
[ ] You have/had/want blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair.
[ ] You love/like skater girls/boys.
[ ] You dislike pink.
[ ] You hate preps.
[x] You wear/wore skateboarding shoes. Vans, but definitely not for skateboarding!
Total: 2

[GEEK]
[x] You love the computer.
[x] You like Star Wars.
[x ] You are supposed/wore/wear to wear glasses
[x] You get straight A's.
[x] You love/like reading.
[ ] You don't care what you look like. (most of the time)
[ ] You have a curfew.
[ ] You always do your homework.
[ ] You never miss school unless your sick.
Total:5

[EMO]
[x] You are depressed sometimes.
[ ] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like the band Thursday.
[x] You cry easily.
[ ] You like emo music.
[ ] You hate being called emo.
[x] You keep/kept a journal/diary.
[ ] You have written a sad poem
[ ] You have/had a sad MySpace/Friendster layout.
[ ] You think emo kids are hot
Total: 3

[GHETTO/GANGSTA]
[x] You like rap.
[ ] you are in a gang
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
[x] You swear a lot.
[ ] You have had a freestyle battle.
[ ] You have worn converse with the tongue flipped out.
Total: 2

[HARDCORE]
[x] You like loud music
[ ] You love the Ninja Turtles!
[ ] You never walk anywhere.
[x] You wear slip-on shoes.
[ ] You love Norma Jean.
[x] You wear band t-shirts.
[ ] People have called you a freak and meant it.
[ ] "hardcore" dance
[ ] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
[x] You wear blue jeans.
Total: 4

[PREP]
[x] You love watching the OC/ OTH
[x] You have/want/had a tiny/medium sized dog.
[x] Your usual outfits consist of bright colors.
[x] You like buying shoes
[x] You shop at American Eagle
[x] You love/like to shop.
[x] You love jeans.
[ ] You love paris hilton
[x ] Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
[ x] you wear big sunglasses.
Total: 9

[Athletic]
[ ] You watch the Superbowl.
[x] You own track shoes or other sports related shoes.
[ ] You collect your/others jerseys.
[] You have/had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[ ] You have posters or plaques of famous athletes.
[ ] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
[ ] You belong/belonged to a school team.
[] You are going/did go to a sports summer camp.
[ ] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.
Total: 1

:)) :)) :)) Prep, I can so go to Gtown now.

Haaay

Crying can only make things seem a little better. In the end, you're still in the same shit you began with, now you have puffy eyes and a blotchy face. I really don't see how that's supposed to make you feel any better.

Life is shit. I wanna give up. I wanna fast forward to 2nd quarter. I wanna begin 3rd Year again. I wanna go back to 2nd year. Better yet, I wanna not care. I wanna be apathetic.

All this shit would seem better if my class was still IIB. I just know it.

Monday, August 6, 2007

Mmm...

Can you really let your feelings NOT affect you?

I really hate today.

Just when I thought there was something to be semi-happy about (95-Philo), there's something to be suicidal about (Geom-go figure)


shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit

life is fucking shit shit shit


school makes suicide so fucking tempting :| :| :|

I want everything to just STOP.

Mmm...