2am and surprise, surprise! I can't sleep. I'm not getting any rest cause I can't stop thinking about our huhvneatcreb. This is truly a whole new level of pathetic.

sometimes we talk like this. for hours. about anything. and everything.

and I think everything is okay...


...but then we both know it isn't.

kiacc fru...

seccac oui

seccac oui

seccac oui

seccac oui

???


E TU

E TU

E TU

E TU

yht E ryda socamv vun ed.

I think it was GOSSIP GIRL (HAHAHAHAHAHAH) that said it best, "you cant save a damsel if she loves distress".

(or the drama) 

how's that for you?

of course ignorance is now the game of this so-called friendship

but then I find out what you did for me...

where does this leave me

where does this leave us

nothing to do. stolen from minky.

hhahaha so maybe i have a math LT to study for

001. Were you ever obsessed with Pokemon?
A little lang :|

002. Did you think Digimon was a cheap rip-off of Pokemon?
Yeah

003. Hell, are you still obsessed with Pokemon?
No

004. Did you ever have nightmares from 'Are You Afraid of the Dark?'?
I never watched it.

005. Did you collect pogs?
What's a pog??

006. Did you ever get in trouble for trading cards in school?
No

007. Were you obsessed with the Spice Girls?
yeah

008. What about Nsync or the Backstreet Boys?
yes!!!!!!!

009. Or maybe Britney Spears?
not as much as nsync.

010. What was your favorite song by her?
dont remember.

011. Favorite song by the Spice Girls?
hahaha stop

012. Was Kenan and Kel really the best show ever?
yes!

013. Did you start to hate the snowplow guys because of the movie 'Snow Day'?
What :|

014. Did you own one of those shirts that looked really small but they stretched to fit whatever body size?
no

015. Did you only used to wear stretch pants with the patterns on them?
leggings? hahha yeah

016. Was light-up sneakers the only way to go?
YES

017. You still call them 'bell bottoms' and not 'flared jeans':
what:|

018. Before you had internet, what did you do to entertain yourself?
read, tv

019. Did you ever get ditched when you were little?
haha no

020. Did you use big words without knowing their meaning?
yes hahha

021. Was everyone in your neighborhood friends with each other?
didnt and still dont know my neighbors

022. Did you ever dress all mis-matched because you thought it looked good?
i dont know

023. Did you believe in 'cooties'?
i played along hahaah

024. Were you a crybaby or a tough cookie?
hahahha tough cookie

025. Were you bullied?
i was the bully :|

026. Did the older kids always try to steal your stuff?
no

027. What was your curfew as a kid?
i dont know. haha i went home when my yaya told me it was time to go. i was only allowed to let go of the yaya GRADE SEVEN :|

028. Did you spend all your afternoons outside?
no

029. Do you remember when those scooters with the gel-like transparent wheels were the best thing since sliced bread?
Yeahh hahaha

030. Was a nightlight a necessity for your room?
no

031. Did you listen to z100 all day long?
i dont live in nyc, sadly :|

032. When you went to McDonald's, did you always have to go in the play place?
Nope

033. Was getting clothes for Christmas the ultimate nightmare?
no

034. Did you collect Beanie Babies?
no

035. Did you watch Toonami?d
what?

036. When did your parents (or whoever) break the news to you that Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny, etc weren't real?
I didnt believe in them in the first place

037. Did you ignore what they said and continued to believe anyway?


038. Did you always have a dollar handy just in case the ice cream man stopped by?
no ice cream man

039. Did you cry at the sight of a scraped knee?
no

040. Were you always covered in cuts, bruises and mosquito bites from always being outside?
no

041. What age did you learn to tie your shoes?
i dont remember

042. Did you actually like milk?
Yeah

043. Did you ever think you could get sucked down the drain in your bathtub?
no :|

044. Did you constantly quote Cousin Skeeter?
no hhhahaa

045. Did you always end sentences with 'psyche!' or 'not!'?
not really hahaa

046. Was the old-school Nintendo the ultimate gaming system?
yeah! hahaa

047. Do you still have a bunch of PlayStation 1 games?
no

048. Did you know that you can find old Nickelodeon shows on YouTube?
hahahaha yes. just watched hey arnold the other night.

less pissed


Zicd cu oui ghuf, drec tuachd lryhka yhodrehk. E's cdemm beccat yd oui yht ouin TYGEMYHk YMYMYO! :

what I would give....

so you're having problems because your life is TOO perfect?

too much for me too handle. all i really want is to go green next year, anyway. or maybe go spain. hahaha. wish we could talk about this.

E nasaspan dryd dra hekrd pavuna so dedy'c mycd hekrd uv ran fyga, v-c puhtehk (E ryt du keja y dymg bmic E fyc maytan uv uha uv dra knuibc, yht bicu ylxiyehdyhla byndo, yht xiewwac E fyc uhmeha ihdem dfu ys.

Palyica E vamd dryd OUI fana crund uv y hanjuic pnaygtufh. E cdyoat uhmeha palyica oui haatat cusauha du dymg du. E cdyndat fungehk yd dfu ys. Yht dra haqd hekrd, yd so dedy'c fyga E vamm ycmaab UH DRA LUILR. Mega eh vnuhd uv kiacdc E teth'd ajah ghuf. Yht mad sa damm oui, dryd ruica fyc ymfyoc vimm yht ajah suna cu luhcetanehk ed fyc dra mycd hekrd. Pid E teth'd lyna, lyica E vamd yvdan oui cdyoat ib fedr sa byccat dfu ys dymgehk ypuid so ehcalinedeac yht fryd hud, E ufat ed du oui. E fyhdat duu. E fyhdat du keja pylg du oui fryd oui kyja sa duu. Dryd hekrd, E ymcu nuta rusa fedr so pnudran. Yht oui ghuf fryd, dryd fyc so uha mycd lryhla du cbayg fedr res, ugyo. So uha mycd lryhla. Oui ghuf ruf E vaam ypuid ymm drec.

Pid huf oui keja sa ymm drec kneav. Pid E's ugyo. Ajah ev E kud y CIPCLNEPAN LYHHUD PA NAYLRAT, hud vnus oui. E's ugyo. E ryja y brocelc muhk dacd dusunnuf, vmihgehk yc iciym, pid E's rana dnoehk du mad ed ymm uid du dra lopan funmt palyica OUI (y tevvanahd uha) ec duu bnaullibeat fedr udran cred. Pid ed'c ugyo duu. E sayh E vaam mega hudrehk E ajan tu ec nekrd vun oui. Cu ed'c paddan oui tuh'd caa sa secanypmo vyem yd cdyoehk sunymmo ibnekrd yht vekrdehk baan bnaccina.

Frydajan. E's ugyo. E tuh'd secc haedran uv oui... famm aqlabd syopa dra myddan. Pid dra vunsan, oui tuh'd tacanja drec vnus sa. Drec ec hud du syga oui vaam kiemdo un yhodrehk hun ec drec vun so aku. E zicd haatat du mad drec uid.

E drehg oui teth'd yhcfan dra bruha lyica E fyhd du ycg oui vun dra fnuhk naycuhc.

drec haatc syzun atedehk.

Frydajan yc famm. DREC E vaam naymmo ugyo ypuid.

one thing I will not stand for is:

to be replaced po cusauha frus E vaam ec pahaydr sa!

I really want to know my la salle result already. I really want to go shopping.

So I haven't thought of the right words to describe how long, exhausting, and crappy this day has been. Though in a twisted sense, I had fun with Max in the club and being EVERYWHERE in Makati with Marion and Cay.



Though I wish...


But I cant always be a spoiled brat, right? I can't always get what I want.

Rana'c dra drehk, E's vilgehk beccat uvv yht rind yd dra fyo oui'na dnaydehk sa, drec vneahtcreb. E fyhd du cruja drec vneahtcreb ib ouin vilgehk ycc. Naymmo.

Pid E muja oui yhofyo.

It's been a difficult two months and I don't think it's about to end soon...

Yd dra aht uv ed ymm, hud dryd ed ryc ahtat, E lyhd yvvunt du muca dra dfu uv oui. E lyhd yvvunt du tnevd yfyo vnus oui kioc. Hud frah ed'c so vencd lrnecdsyc fedruid ran, yht acbaleymmo res. Hud frah lummaka ytsecceuh nacimdc yna ypuid du cdynd buinehk eh. Hud frah E's ryjehk cilr y tevvelimd desa paehk sunymmo ibnekrd. Hud frah frah E's mucehk socamv du baan bnaccina. Hud frah E vaam mega ajanodrehk ec lnispmehk. Hud frah E lyh pynamo vihldeuh fedruid dra dfu uv oui kioc.

Pid E tuh'd pmysa oui dfu vun caagehk dra vneahtcreb E ryja eh oui dfu eh cusauha amca.

I love how we swim in a pool lies and call it a great friendship.

I want to shove all that we've been through in your face!!!!

let's go back, back to the way we were.

how you've left your mark in my life...

... I described your laugh. It scared me.

a conversation you probably don't remember....


yht E druikrd du socamv...

"kut, E'mm hajan pa vneahtc fedr drec bancuh"

Muug yd sa huf, E's bnyldelymmo PAkkEHk vun ouin vneahtcreb.

lonely shot...

I haven't been home on saturday night in ages... gahh it sucks :|

you're right. this love is difficult but it's real.

back from Ina's 18th and...


I'M SOBER.

1. I really miss you.
2. I looooove free periods with Alisa, Celine, MicaSua, Fred, and IsaRey :)
3. FRIDAY TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWW

to do:
-philo quiz
-theo quiz
-yb essay
-puso essay
-lit research
-fil journal

Does anyone else feel like his/her life has been shit for the past month? When will this end?? 

I'm being dramatic again. :| 

What I'm pissed about won't matter in ten years, in fact I don't think it'll matter in five. But it's significant now, so I hate you. For now. I will not say more because I think I'll give it away. 

1. Skipped first period to do Philo 

2. Compo-useless shit

3. Blah blah blah I don't care. I'm lazy. I'm mad. 

The only thing remotely entertaining that happened today was going with Isis to AcadBldg to whatever. 

Whatever. I feel like crap. 

I passed Physics. hahahhaahahahha!!

Oh gng was also absent. 

flskjdfkljsdfkldsflsdfa

UAP IS OUT ON MONDAY. :|:| CRAPBAGGGGGGGGGGG

I cant wait for Friday. Sabogan na 'to. 

Only joking :) 

I would just like to say that because of that I didn't get any work done last night. I was too distracted. I also could not sleep. 

6:49 AM. I woke up late and I haven't done philo. I'm skipping first period. 

you're absolutely amazing...

but you I love for always helping me... cope

gahhh dont come back!

why.wont.gossip.girl.load.

1. I woke up early to call CollegeBoard about my name change and they said to call again :|:|:| wtf.
2. Music was actually okay--we actually got a 100 in the composition.
3. Math--Mrs. Carreon kept telling me to shut up cause I kept talking to everyone and asking them to print out my csb app.
4. My printer is still being fixed. I miss it.
5. Facebook inbox:|:|:|
6. Before Math and Music there was Compo pala... but ehhh. Compo :|
7. Physics:|:| It was okay. I got the problems. Hahaha PAYING ATTENTION DOES MAKE A DIFERENCE :|
8. Lunch
9. Continuing Games--skipped CW.
10. We won a lot of our games... so... :)
11. Dr. Creami Lady gave Anna a free stik-o. hahaha.
12. Rode home with Alisa
13. Gossip Girl
14. Gossip Girl

My mom's leaving for the states tonight.

things to do:
-check on Erica and Paola regarding the memos they gave
-check on Erica and Bettina about the visit on Sat
-write essay for Yona about puso
-give rosaries and name plates to Erica and Bettina
-PHILO!!!
-csb app
-SWINGERRRR
-read el fili
-physics problems.

gahhh I'm sleepy. Anyway off to gym now.

the environment has evolved to something that functions better without your presence. dont come back. (I'm not talking about my mother)

Crappy day. I really hope tomorrow will be better. 

400th post, it's about you...

Let's try and go for 20, shall we? 

More and... 

HOW COULD I FORGET!!!

happy birthday, Maxine Cruz!!!:P I love you and I'm sorry that I don't have any plants to give you. :| 

Last night I was reading the older messages on my cbox and Isa wrote that I forgot to blog about two very important things. I replied that I hope that I would my memory will serve me well and I'll remember. But, I don't. With four months left, I'll try to blog as religiously as Isa and try to document every moment left. But not like her, I think I'll stick to numbers. 

1. I think that prom brings out the selfishness in everyone, myself included. 

2. Prom also brings out how mean we are. 

3. Free period PE rocks. The internet in the IMC wasn't working so Thea, Tatty, Celine and I ended up just making kwento and laughing really hard at this kwento of Celine and her sister's friend :| hahahaha We could not stop laughing.

4. Prom sucks. 

5. I really need a prom date.

6. I did have an enjoyable time picking random names from Pat's wet ziploc to decide on prom table arrangements. 

7. Apologies. 

Well this entry is crap, well the day isn't really anything special since I tasted third year again and spent the entire day talking about prom :|:|:| 

things to do:

1. CW revision

2. Physics Quiz

3. Finish Math SW 

4. Yearbook essay (look for someone to do it:|)

5. SWINGERRRRRR GAAHHH IP:| 

I changed my blog template. 

I miss the way we were.

you don't know how lucky you are. stop bitching. it gets hard but it's not as difficult as you believe it to be. 

the void of your absence has been filled but not by your return...