you fucking depress me. 

Last HS Sembreak and as usual, there's still work to be done. I'm waiting for the fil video to finish converting... did I mention, that I'm sick? I may have measles. I will kill Nicco because I have a fever and rashes all over when I have a fil video to edit. He got it first. :| :| fuck this. 

I'm still waiting. I guess I should blog about sembreak so far since if I'm like really sick then I won't a sembreak anymore anyway... 

FRIDAY

Fil was okay, except I needed extra paper but the proctor didn't have any. So I had to write on the margins :| 

yeah, okay. im too lazy and i really dont want to relive this night. too sabog for freakin words. 

all I can think about is you 

I am tired of all my laconic entries about this, that, and you. mad'c  syga drec naym ;) 

i don't even know why you bother dealing with me or being patient with me 

dlsu-cet is over. 

I wonder why you don't get condemned for your temper... is it because you're more righteous than me?

Or you're just better at hiding it... or being a hypocrite? 

You're really upset. Who is the first girl you go to?
:: Mmmm it depends... Maybe Mariane 

Can you do a split?
:: Nope 

Last person you texted?
:: MonMen

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
:: Both.

Have you been to New York City?
:: Yup! 

Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone?
:: Don't remember... 

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
:: MonMen

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
:: I hope so.

Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
:: Learning Child

Have you ever tattooed anyone's name on you?
:: Uh no 

How many piercings do you have?
:: two, one on each ear... 

Which year has been the best so far?
:: I really have no idea... 

Ever found more than a dollar in a random place?
:: Nope 

Last time you laughed really hard?
:: Earlier 

When is your next road trip?
:: I have no idea.

Do you know anyone addicted to any type of drugs?
:: No

Where is your phone?
:: Next to me 

Do you know anyone by the name of Dennis?
:: The Menace 

Where is your pet right now?
:: Downstairs.

What color phone do you have?
:: White 

What outfit do you have on at this exact moment?
:: Blue shirt, black j.crew shorts 

What is the natural color of your hair?
:: Black.

What are you doing tomorrow?
:: School 

Does a heartbreak feel as bad as it sounds?
:: No idea 

What is the closest blue object to you?
:: Cant actually find anything blue... ah maybe one of the books 

Have you eaten popcorn in the past 48 hours?
:: Hahhha actually yeah 

What happened at 10:00 am today?
::Sleeping 

Do you need to say anything to anyone?
:: Yes

What were you doing at 7AM?
:: Sleeping.

How do you feel?
:: Dreading school 

Something you hate about the person you love:
:: Never pushes through 

Something you wish your mother or father had warned you about:
:: School freakin sucks 

Something that's holding you back from achieving your dreams:
:: laziness

Something you think you could win an award for:
:: procrastinating

Something you fear more than anything:
:: not getting into a college

Something you wish people would understand:
:: ugh i dont know 

Something that keeps you going everyday:
:: FRIENDS

Something amazing that happened last summer:
:: freedom in nyc 

Something you hate that people say:
:: stupid things, stupid questions... 

Something you wish you could have told that person that you never saw again:
:: honestly, good bye. 

Something that really stands out about last school year:
:: prom 

Something you like that everyone else thinks is weird:
:: i dont know 

Something that makes the problems in your life not seem so bad:
:: God, family, friends. 

Something you do when you're trying to calm down:
:: RANT 

Something you do when you wake up at 3 AM:
:: pray 

Something you absolutely love about that certain someone:
:: what certain someone? 

Something amazing that's happened this year:
:: I have no idea 

Something you love doing on cold rainy days:
:: Sleep or read 

Something you listen to when you're in a really good mood:
:: forever-chris brown or as lovers go-dashboard 

Something you had to give up but didn't want to:
::

Something about you that's like everyone else:
:: rational being!

Something that makes you change the channel:
:: commercials 

Something you wish you could change about your life:
:: a lot of freakin things 

Something you think about every night before you go to sleep:
:: Should I pray some more? 

Something about you that you think will soon change:
:: everything... college. 

Something that broke your heart as a child:
:: I barely remember my childhood 

Something that really sparks your interest in a person:
:: fuuuuuuun

Something that truly disgusts you:
:: bugs, seriously.. or nature in general 

Something you wish that a certain person would see in you:
:: what certain person 

I need to ingest copious amounts of alcohol to forget that I am living in this fucking hellhole I call my life.


Fuck never in my life have I felt that so many things are fucking falling apart. I guess it's what they fucking call karma.

Even when you piss me off or hurt me, you're still doing the right thing FOR me.

Or maybe I am...

this is the second night in a row you've made me cry.


I miss how we used to talk.


Yeah, I comprehend. But I am not okay with it.

No. I am not talking about you

new macbook. 

new macbook. 

oh come to me. hahhaha this is actually pretty timely, i expected apple to come out with new products when they released the iphone 3g... but they didnt so i told my parents that i'll just wait for apple to come out with a new laptop instead of the macbook air... but alas, they have come out with a new one... sooner than my parents expected... and my mom is in the states right now. 

mmmmmmmm. 

okay no. i dont deserve it. but i want. 

baby, you're worth it :)

HONESTLY

1. Honestly, how many people have you ever had very strong feelings for?
Four, if you count JT. Hahaha.

2. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
Blue

3. Honestly, what's on your mind?
School and you.

4. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
Talking to GJ and BeaN

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
Uh, I guess it depends on the day.

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
Yeah...

7. Honestly, do you watch television?
Yeah

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
Yes.

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
Anything with you, really.

10. Honestly, What are you listening to?
Nothing.

11. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
Yeah.

12. Honestly, do you have deep secrets?
Yeah.

13. Honestly, where is your best friend?
They're all probably at home.

14. Honestly, are you mean?
Yeah, but it depends on how I feel about you. If I'm mean to you in a mean way, I love you. If I'm mean to you in a jokingly way... I hate you. That's the case most of the time anyway...


Whoops, did I just give it away? :|

15. Honestly, where did you copy and paste this from?
Isa Fran

16. Honestly, where would you rather be now?
With you

17. Honestly, do you like someone?
Yeah

18. Honestly, who was the last person that sent you a text, what did it say?
This long text to all my officers

19. Honestly, where are your shoes?
Everywhere. hahaha.

20. Honestly, would you choose your best friends or your boy/girlfriend?
If I had one, I would choose my best friends.

21. Honestly, have you gone out of your way to make a new friend?
Yeah

22. Honestly, do you shower?
DUH.

23. Honestly, are you desperate?
In some aspects, yes. I'm desperate to be get into a college.

25. Honestly, who was last say to good night to you?
Mariane... or GJ? gj.

27. Honestly, when was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out?
A few weeks ago.

29. Honestly, Have you gone streaking?
Nope

30. Honestly, do you see anyone as more than just a friend?
Mmm... maybe the possibility... but not really...

31. Honestly, do you think its right to cheat if your boy/girlfriend cheated on you?
No.

33. Honestly, what makes you mad?
A lot of little things... and sometimes you, but I don't know why I can never hold it against you. It makes me mad when I feel like I'm not appreciated. It makes me mad when I make the same mistakes. It makes me mad when I do stupid things... a lot. I'm an angry person.

34. Honestly, does being with your friends make you happy?
Yeah :)

35. Honestly, do you believe in yourself
YES. Positive thinking.

37. Honestly, who can you go to for anything?
Mariane

38. Honestly, have you hugged a girl this week?
No

39. Honestly, have you had a kiss on the cheek this week?
No

40. Honestly, when was the last time you hugged someone?
A long time ago...

41. Honestly, are you a relationship person?
I can survive without a romantic relationship, obviously. But I cant live without the relationships I have with family and friends.

42. Honestly, what’s your status?
Single

43. Honestly, do you own cigarettes?
No.

44. Honestly, where is your mom?
States

45. Honestly would you date someone who smokes?
No.

46. Honestly, would you date someone addicted to drugs?
No.

47. Honestly, Would you date someone who lived in another state?
Nope...

48. Honestly, Whats your biggest turn off?
Lack of manners..

49. Honestly, Whats your biggest turn on, physically?
Smile or laugh... crap and the voice... I really love it when a guy's voice is just SO deep :|

52. Honestly, Have you ever regretted breaking up with someone?
Haven't done this yet.

53. Honestly, Have you ever dated someone more than once?
No.

54. Honestly, If you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
Micheal Cera

55. Honestly, what's your relationship status?
Single

56. Honestly, What's the sweetest thing someone you dated did for you?
Mmm... I'd rather not say. It happened a long time ago anyway...

57.Honestly, Last time you got flowers?
Birthday... or does prom count?

58. Honestly, Are you ready to get into a serious relationship right now?
Nope.

59. Honestly, Do you like cuddling?
I can barely handle hugs.

60. Honestly, Do you hold grudges?
No

61. Honestly, Do you regret dating anyone?
No.

62. Honestly, Hugger or kisser?
Neither

63. Honestly, missing someone?
Yes, god, yes.

64. Honestly, Most important lesson you've learned from your exes?
None

65. Honestly, Are you happier single or in a relationship.
Cant tell.

66. Honestly, whats the most important thing in a relationship?
Ditto, Is. Trust and honesty... okay throw in patience there too.

67. Honestly, what would make you break up with someone...no questions asked.
Cheating, doing something stupid like smoking pot

68. Honestly, Have you ever liked someone who didn't like you back?
Yeah of course

69.Honestly, do you love someone right now?
Yeah

70. Honestly, how important are looks?
They're important enough that you need them to be noticed... but that's about it.

71. Honestly, what did you do last night?
Hung out with my dad... worked a little... caught up on sleep.

72. Honestly, Do you consider yourself shy?
No

73. Honestly, Would you rather date someone who was hot or ugly ?
Hot.

74. Honestly, Have you ever been turned down or turned someone down?
Yeah

75. Honestly, Have you ever been ashamed of anyone you were dating?
No.

76. Honestly, Do you currently want to date anyone? Who is it?
I like someone but I don't know about a relationship...

77. Honestly, Thing that made you the happiest today?
Just hanging out with friends at the WR Bazaar :)

78. Honestly, Would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved of?
No. I know I disobey them a lot and probably disrespect them a lot too.. but I don't think that I'd do that to them. As cliche as it is, they know what's best for me. It's kind of like if I get into Ateneo and if I kinda want to go, I wont go if they don't allow me. Okay, labo.

79. Honestly, Do you stay friends with the people you date?
It depends on the reason why it ended in the first place.

80. Honestly, Would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
hahahahaha YES.

81. Honestly, would you kiss on the 1st date?
No

82. Honestly, Would you date someone A LOT older or younger than you?
No.

83. Honestly, Does the person you currently like know you like them?
Doubt it, really doubt it.

85.Honestly, Do you think the word 'love' is overused?
Yes.

you never follow through

You say that I'm always in a bad mood... 

...but god, don't you notice that I only laugh and smile when I'm with you? 

I CANT FIND NICK AND NORA'S INFINITE PLAYLIST ANYWHERE :( :( :( 

Michael Cera <333

Okay, well I guess it's a good thing since I need to get back to work 

sorry

Baby, I don't think it's love... 

I really love PAREF on WEEKS like this. 

Last week, two days of no school and one practically free day because of October 2 (you're only really holy if you know this) 

and this week, we missed two periods today for PRACTICE for Eucharistic then tomorrow Floral Carpet making... and then the real thing... and then the next day FREE DAY. 

whooooooo!!!!!!!!! 

you're busy and we're barely speaking... 

... so last night I had my own fun.