Monday, September 29, 2008

I'd say my life is crumbling but it really isn't as bad as others'. I just want to get rid of all these ill feelings.


PLEASE let us catch up soon. I have so many concerns to tell you.


Of course you don't tell me anything. I already know that. I know. I know. I know. No need to make it a FUCKING REALITY.

I'm not mad.


Fuck, let's go party. Please.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

god i cant sleep

shoot me

so things could be going a lot better. i could stop worrying.

shit you know what

i just cant

i wont

i dont want to have deal with this shit


there are more important things to worry about... like my impending doom...

although this could be it already anyway

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

so yeah, i'm gaining motivation again... gradually.

so tonight
-notes
-philo quiz
-fil quiz

Friday, September 19, 2008

red team

kid: why is making out bad?
gabbe: because you receive pleasure from it and makes it a sin
(shit kay that made no sense)
kid: I don't understand
gabbe: you should talk to your tutor about this
kid: so making out is a sin?
gabbe: yes
kid: aw that sucks.


...wow
since surveys are what i'm good for...

If the person who hurt you most showed up to you with flowers, a card, and gave you a public apology, what would you do?
It depends on what he did.

What are you thinking about right now?
Puso tomorrow and I am so tired.

Are you there for your friends?
I think I am.

Are you a forgiving person?
Sure

Are you mad at anyone?
Not really

If you could kill someone, would you?
Yeah :|

Are you an aunt or uncle?
Yup

Are you pregnant?
No.

Has 2008 treated you good so far?
It's okay.

Who were the last people you sat with?
Mariane, Nikka, Celine, Pat R, and BeaLag

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
I don't remember.

What is something you do daily that your friends may not know?
Mmm... nothing really.

Do you have plans for your next birthday?
Nope

Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
Nope

Ever punched someone or been punched?
Hahaha yeah

If your best friend told you she was pregnant and wanted an abortion, what would you do?
Encourage her to find other alternatives than abortion.
Name one thing about the opposite sex that automatically turns you on?
Secret smiles.

Anyone from your past ever come to mind often?
Yeah

Would you fight for your friends?
Of course:)

Are you a jealous person?
Yes

Is your birthday on a holiday?
No

What did your last text message say?
"Yeah, I'm at Mcdo, actually"
Pretend you've had 15 beers, now describe what you would be doing right now:
Drunken phone calls.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

it's always the hardest time in our relationship.

now, you make me unbelievably happy and yet you also make the bile rise up in my throat.

stolen from isa

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. Gabbe
2. Gab (seriously)
3. Princess hahahha (no comment)

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. 12.12.91
2. Christmas
3. New Year

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS FOR NOW:
1. Forever-Chris Brown
2. Viva La Vida-Coldplay
3. As Lovers Go- Dashboard Confessional FOREVER!

THREE THINGS YOU FIRST NOTICE IN A PERSON:
1. Face
2. Clothes
3. Accent

THREE PERSONS YOU REALLY MISS:
1. No
2. one
3. really

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. iPod Touch-32GB
2. iPhone
3. MacBook Air

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Reading
2. Talking. (:|)
3. Watching shows.

okay i am officially boring.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO:
1. Prague
2. Hong Kong
3. NYC

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FASTFOODS:
1. McDonald's
2. In-N-Out
3. Burger King

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Sprite
2. Coke Zero
3. Absolut Kurant

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1. Phone
2. Brush
3. Money

THREE PLACES YOU'VE BEEN TODAY:
1. Woodrose
2. Club
3. Town

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Red
2. Green
3. Yellow

THREE EVENTS YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD TO:
1. Sembreak
2. Bora Senior Trip
3. Colleg

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ANSWER THIS:
1. BORED


Are you really happy or are you just saying that?
--I never say I'm really happy...

Have you and your best friend ever dated?
--Nope

Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad?
--A LOT OF THINGS. But mostly the demise of my iPod.

Are you a jealous person?
--Yes.

Do you tend to get angry all the time?
--Yeah...

Do you drink alcohol?
--Is, cant believe you like the taste of Bacardi. Yes, I drink. :|

Would you consider yourself a heartless person?
--No

Do you think relationships are hard?
--Nope

Is there something/someone you wanna let go of?
--Nope

What did you dream about last night?
--I was too tired to dream.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of anyone today?
--Yeah

What will you do tomorrow?
--INTRAMS OPENING. LAST INTRAMS OPENING! :| I LOVE RED!!!!

Do you drink iced tea?
-- Yup

Excited for anything this week?
-- Prolly just Intrams.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
-- Losing my voice

Are you tired right now?
-- Extremely

How many children do you plan on having?
-- Uh.... 3-5?

Do you own a little black dress?
-- Yup

How many cousins total do you have?
-- TOO MANY TO COUNT. I think I like forty first cousins tho :|

Did you get at least eight hours of sleep last night?
-- Nope

How old will you be in 5 years?
-- 21

Do you know what you're going to wear tomorrow?
-- Leotards with Red costume over than WR jogging pants with Red shirt

When was the last time you cried?
-- Last night

Do you care if your water is from the faucet or a bottle?
--Yeah

Have you ever sleep-walked?
-- No

Do you feel like the world will be a better place one day?
-- Nope.

Who was the last person to yell at you?
-- Idk. Probably Soph but then, who wasn't yelling today?

Will this weekend be a good one?
-- Yeah. I hope we win the game and I have to start studying for DLSU-CET

What do you want right now?
-- Nothing

What did you eat today for lunch?
-- Didn't eat

If you had to eat 1 thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
-- Prawn Salad from Shang Palace

Have you ever requested a song on the radio?
-- Nope

Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
-- Nope

When is the last time you took a nap?
-- Hahahhaha okay this is kinda funny so I put two chairs together earlier and slept for half an hour with Alisa. We were the only ones in ivb but I'm sure people were going in and out. :|

Whose bed did you sleep in Wednesday night?
-- Mine

Do you miss anyone?
-- Nope

Who last missed call you?
-- Mom

What time did you wake up today?
-- 6:30

Is there anybody that you trust 100%?
-- Yup :)

What did you do last night?
-- Fell asleep while waiting for GG to finish downloading... (on the keyboard...again)

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
-- Sure.

Honestly, do you like anyone?
-- Yeah

What are you listening to?
-- Nothing. Except AYER A-AYER keeps ringing in my head.

Last night you felt?
-- tired

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
-- Mom

Do you regret anything from your past?
-- Yup

Have you ever made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
-- Nope

Ever cried because of happiness?
-- Nope

Anything you're giving up on?
-- School... hahahha I wish I could give up on it though.

Where is your best friend at this exact moment?
-- Home, probably.

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
-- Nope
Are you in a good mood?
-- Okay lang

Have you ever been in love?
-- Mmm no

What will you be doing in 3 hours?
-- Sleeping

Could you go a day without eating?
-- Yup

Were you happy when you woke up today?
-- Ough. No.


Are you ticklish?
-- Yeah

Ever talked to someone that was drunk?
-- Yeah

Do you have a crush on someone?
-- Yup

Who is/are the last person that you hung out with?
-- Mela

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
-- Closed off

Think of the person you told "I love you" last, did you mean it?
--yeah

What would you say to your best friends right now?
-- Are you alive?

Is your best friend dating anyone?
-- Nope

What happened at 9:00 am today?
-- Uh, intrams.

Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
-- Nope

Where did you last eat?
-- Club, this afternoon

Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
-- Nope.

How many times does the letter "a" show up in your full name?:
-- kay too lazy to count

Are your fingernails painted?
-- Nope

How long is it until your birthday?:
-- 3 Months!!!!!!!!

Is your hair longer than your shoulders?:
-- Yup

Do you know anyone else with the same name as yours?:
-- Nope

What color is your bedspread?:
-- Green

Monday, September 15, 2008

I haven't been doing much lately, nothing productive. nothing fun.


ACET was so not fun. RIP Ace, my iPod.


augh where are you.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

good bye, acet.

hello, dlsu-cet, my life.


mmmmmm i love love love love love love you :)

Thursday, September 4, 2008

who knew that a few simple words can brush away my depression, worry, and anger?

things are starting to look up, but...


I MISS YOU

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

i love you

E muja oui palyica oui syga sa fyhd du pa dra pacd bancuh E lyh pa. E muja oui palyica oui syga sa naymewa ymm dra kuut drehkc eh meva yht oui syga sa vunkad ymm dra pyt drehkc...

... un yd maycd kad sa drnuikr ed.

E muja oui palyica oui syga sa csema yht vunkad.

E fuhtan ev E's kejehk ed yfyo. E fuhtan ev E syga oui vaam dra fyo oui syga sa vaam.


but shit I hate school. I didn't even realize it's the ber months already...

... seven months left, baby. :)

Monday, September 1, 2008

Gabbe: why are you bitter?
Mariane: it doesn't matter. I'm busy.

Mariane has nothing to do with my frustration.




damn straight fuck it shouldn't matter. fuck fuck ufkc fuck fuck fuck fuck JUST FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
I WISH I COULD JUST HATE YOU

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

we don't lack trust in this relationship because i've got enough trust for the both of us.

but that's not enough for me.


moving on to more important things


i will now visualize myself working in google. whooooo fil. still the death of me, huh?