you don't know what it's like

I don't like feeling this way

stolen from isa

Ten Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People:


1.I'm actually not that sorry I hate you. I hate you for what you did. I am a TINY bit sorry that I found this album of you in Multiply and I've sent its link to everyone and anyone I know whom will spread it... Then again, there are days when I like you a little bit... but those don't happen a lot. But whatever, college next year, right? No way am I going to the same college as you.

2. Please please please please please come home already. I miss you. How are you? Please tell your girlfriend I want her to die. Come home. I promise not to brush you off anymore. I WANT TO ALWAYS BE ABLE EAT BACON/SPAM/CORNED BEEF/WHATEVER'S IN THE FRIDGE WITH YOU AT 2AM AGAIN ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M CRAMMING.

3. I'm sorry.

4. I love you please feel better. Please open up to me. (This is the nth time I've "said" this to you. :|)

5. You're fucking amazing, you know that? I do appreciate you. I want to be more like you instead of the ugly person I am. I'm glad I am able to tell you so many things. I only hope that I make you as happy as you make me.

6. I'll probably be friends with you for a really long time but god sometimes, you're such a bitch and HAVE A LITTLE FAITH, WILL YA?

7.Mmm.. yeah okay, I kinda think you're a two-faced bitch.

8. Calm down, smile, be fucking happy.

9. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

10. I WANT TO BE A GREEN ARCHER, LA SALLE. Please accept me.
Same to you, UAP.

Nine Things About Myself:

1. I visit your Facebook profile like 10 million times a day.

2. I keep vodka in my bathroom.

3. I sleep late but I don't get anything done.

4. I would so marry fictional Draco Malfoy.

5. I live vicariously through Gossip Girl.

6. I didn't enjoy the MANY good looking boys during WYD as much as I say I did because I spent the whole time thinking about you. It drove me absolutely crazy but it kept me from screaming my head off at a lot of people. :)

7. I get scared when I wake up in the middle of the night or when I'm still awake while my sister is asleep because I feel like the devil is going to come and get me.

8. Holden Caufield is my idol when it comes to cursing.

9. I want to take up law because of Legally Blonde, seriously.


Eight Ways To Win My Heart:

1. BE A GENTLEMAN.

2. Greet my parents.

3. Don't act stupid around my friends.

4. Wear nice clothes.

5. Don't be oblivious to current events.

6. Stop me from drinking too much.

7. Be respectful.

8. Don't be wild.


Seven Things That Cross Your Mind a Lot:

1. Where am I going to college?

2. Am I going to pass the ACET/DLSUCET/UAP TEST?

3. Am I making the right choices?

4. Why did I do/say that?

5. What do I have to get done for tonight?

6. What am I doing this weekend?

7. HOW ARE YOU?


Six Things You Don't Like About Yourself:

1. I swear too much.

2. I am lazy.

3. I lack self-control.

4. I am a liar.

5.I think highly of myself.

6. I expect everyone to do what I want.


Five Turn Off’s:


1. Lack of manners.

2. Lack of sense of humor.

3. Non-existent faith

4. General stupidity. ditto, Isa.

5. Sorry, but ugly shoes.


Four Turn On’s:
(#'s 1, 2, and 3 pretty much the same, Miks.)

1. Trustworthy

2. Smart.

3.HOLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :|

4. Nice shoes. HAHAHA.

Three Smileys That Describe Your Life:


1. :|

2. =))

3. :D

Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:


1. Travel with my friends--like seriously travel meaning going to many European countries.

2. Get drunk in Prague.


One Confession:

1. I am a liar.

so yeah...


http://twitter.com/mixitwithlove/

I haven't thought about Georgetown in awhile. I was digging through my gmail inbox looking for a file that Paola sent me a month ago, and I found this email from Georgetown. When I went on campus tour there before third year they made me fill up this data sheet so when I'm a senior they can send me the necessary documents so that I may be able to apply.

Well, now I'm a senior and I cant believe I missed that email by a MONTH. I clicked on it and it had a link telling me how to apply, what I needed, and whatnot. I haven't thought about studying abroad for a while, either. I used to really want it, now I honestly don't give a fuck. I don't even know where I want to study in the country I live in.


The question is: should I even bother trying? (for Georgetown, or whatever, I mean) There is also the option of transferring. Mmm... so many choices. Is this how the real world feels like?

Well at least now I have other things to think about other than you.

how do you like someone....

... that doesn't believe in you?

Yhofyo, E's kuehk uh y puo pnayg.

I'm hoping this will do me some good and fill my mind with vectors instead of you.

How can I make myself seem mind blowing to you? I'm tired of being ordinary.

I hate the way you make feel.

You make me feel weak...


...and yet you exhilarate me.

I WANT TO SLEEP ALREADY. 

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Oui ghuf fryd?

E ryda socamv vun rydehk oui. E ryda socamv palyica ymm E lyh vulic uh ec ruf silr E ryda oui. E ryda socamv palyica uv ehcdayt uv cditoehk E ys duu luhlahdnydat uh so rydnat.

E ryda oui palyica oui caas cu vilgehk pmeccvimmo rybbo eh ouin ufh meddma funmt.

E ryda oui palyica E lyh yht E fyhd du. E ryda oui yht E fyhd oui du ghuf ed. E ku uid uv so fyo du rind oui, E ytsed ed. Sucd uv dra desa, E tuh'd ajah keja y cred. So luhcleahla iciymmo kadc du sa pid fedr oui ed tuach'd.


E'ja taletat dryd E's kuehk du cdub rydehk oui frah E'ja syta oui lno...


Sucd uv ymm, E ryda dryd oui syga sa yld drec fyo.

Dryhg kut E tuh'd caa oui ajanotyo.

Of course they tell you to savor every moment of senior year but you have no time to stop and smell the flowers (or in our case, bricks.hahaha)

I just told myself..."I cant afford to sleep anymore" I LOVE SENIOR YEAR.

Are your toe nails painted pink? nope

Has a boy put their arm around you in the past 5 days? nope

Are you wearing short shorts? nope

Is your bra pink? nope

Do you enjoy wearing dresses? yup!

Ever turned a boy down you shouldn't have? mmm no.

Are your fingernails painted black? no

Do you straighten your hair often? flat iron is like my freakin BFF--not as much Thea does tho :|

Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? yes

What would you do if you received a long love letter? read and prolly think it's stupid :|

Who was the last person to text you? my trainer

Would you ever leave the house without make-up on? always

Do you wear collared shirts? always

On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you? 20

In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy? nope

Do you like to hold hands? eh unless the guy has like sweaty hands or something :|

Who do you tell everything to? I don't tell anyone EVERYTHING

How many months until your birthday? 4 months!

What color is your hair? black

What makes you happy? clothes, shoes, school supplies, good times, good vibes, laughing with you, talking with you, being with you :)

Do you miss someone? not really... okay well yes, kinda.

Where were you an hour ago? my bed

What are you excited about? nothing really... hahaha okay UAP test :|

Do you have any tattoos or piercings? 2 piercings

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? yeah.

Have you lost friends in the past years? yeah, but for the better.

Where is the person you want most? hahaha i don't know? home?

where will you be 2 hours from now? sleeping.

What are you doing tomorrow? school. catching up. studying. filling up apps. writing admissions essays. tutoring club. gym

Where were you at 9am this morning? shit trying not to kill myself--it was barok time hahahha

Do you fall for people easily? I hope not

What does your last text message read and who was it from? "okay"-trainer

What are you listening to right now? nothing.

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't? yes

Do you have anything in your pockets right now? nothing

In the past week have you gotten sick? er I've been feeling sick for awhile right now

On a scale of 1-10 How good is life?compared to many, like TWENTY. but in my opinion, eh six?

another survey.

How has this past week been for you?
stress

Who was the last person you texted?
monmen

Last person of the opposite sex to give you a hug?
I don't hug.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yeah

First person under ' J' on your cell phone?
Jaime Marfori

Do you hate that person?
uhm no... hahaha. I stopped traffic in UP just to say hi... clearly I was out of my mind:|

Is the last person you held hands with attractive?
n/a hahaha

How many and what kind of animals are in your house?
there's a koi pond, I don't know how many fishes we have and there's duke

Who are you disappointed in right now?
no one really

When was the last time something bothered you?
earlier tonight

What's the most interesting thing that happened to you today?
nothing.

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
dont think so

Would you ever date a friend's ex?
hahahah that depends if we were like 25 and they dated in HS then okay... hahaha


Whats the most important thing in a relationship in your opinion?
mmm trust


If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?
eh, nothing. she likes him. so what, I'd get pissed if I weren't like over him.

Are you the type that would rather stay at other peoples houses or have them at yours?
have people stay at my house

Have you ever hooked up with one of your ex's best friends?
no

Do tattoos and piercings excite you?
nope

Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again?


Do you know anyone whose name starts with a Z?
yeah

Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
some random person

I'll bet you're missing someone right now?
kinda

When was your last encounter with the police?
dont remember.

Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
um no. haha
What can always put you in a good mood?
youuuuuuuuuuu and clothes, shoes, and books

Have you kissed in the rain?:
no.

Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
GOD. hahaha :|
What do you miss about your past?
nothing really.

How many TRUE friends do you have?
A few, but I'm happy with that :)

I am too angry for words and I need you.

I never start working early anymore since I'm so used to not sleeping...

When is the next time you will see the person who takes your breath away?
Maybe next weekend... but after the UPCAT maybe God will reward me and he'll surprise me :)

Are you waiting for something?
Yes, for my parents to come home and for the year to end so I can drink again and know if I have a future or not.

Last myspace message you received?
I don't really use my myspace.

Are you happy with life?
Almost contented :|

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Yeah

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yeah

Are you a jealous person?
Yes

How's the weather today?
Super rainy!

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
Nope

When's the next time you'll see your closest friend?
Tomorrow

What were you doing this morning at 7am?
Taking the UPCAT

What radio station do you listen to the most?
89

What are you listening to?
Nothing

Is there anything that you are craving right now?
Cibo

What do you need to be doing right now?
Catching up work.

Who do you hate?
You... I recall a conversation I had with Thea last Friday
Gabbe: Man, it is so hard to be friends with people you hate
Thea: Hahahaha why, you're friends with people you hate?
Gabbe: Uh yaeh and I just wanna kill her half the time.
Thea: You're right it is hard.

Do you think you're a serious person?
Depends

Why is your relationship status the way it is?
It's the way I want it to be

When is the last time you cried?
Last night

What are you doing tomorrow?
I'll be on my deathbed--oh, I mean school. DEATH MARCH TO GRADUATION, BABY.

How have you felt today?
Just fucking STRESSED.

Do you tell your best friends EVERYTHING?
No

What were you doing at noon yesterday?
Watching tv

Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
Nope

Last movie you watched?
Failure to Launch

Who/What made you upset yesterday?
UPCAT

Do you sing in the shower?
HAHAHAHA. Yes.

Would you ever consider moving to another state to be with the one you love?
It depends

Do you trust all of your friends?
No.

What color are your bedroom walls?
Pink and purple and this like grey neutral color.

First thing you notice in the opposite sex?
How they dress

Is there something you wish you could tell somebody?
Yes

What other names did your parents consider for you?
I don't know. Oh wait, I remember now. It's too mortifying to share with cyberworld.

Did you ever get kid's meals from McDonald's just for the toys?
Yeah

What does your last text say and who's it from?
"Haha. Intense upcat, huh?" Hoy, rest kaya! Get well soon~" Mariane

Do you like your life?
Bits and pieces.

What was the last thing you said aloud?
Call the driver

Have you ever fell asleep in someones arms?
Yeah

What were you doing at 1 am?
Sleeping
What are you seriously wearing?
Black skinnies and an old pink Gap shirt